Let’s go pumpkin pickin…or not! October 23, 2006
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It was a gorgeous weekend! Saturday we went to the pumpkin patch. It was just cold enough to be a real fall day. There were some pumpkins already priced and ready to go home, but we decided to go on the hay ride to the pumpkin patch to pick ours. It was T’s first time on a hayride and he was a little apprehensive at first. But as soon as he got on he was good to go. When I think pumpkin patch, I think pumpkins on the vine, that you go pick yourself. I must have been wrong to assume that in this case because pumpkin patch around here must = dejected pumpkins sitting in dirt. Just chillin. No fabulous selection of pumpkins that the kiddie poos could pick out on their own. Just a bunch of ugly old lopsided pumpkins that no one would want. It was quite disappointing. 
But we got over it. And I did get some really cute pictures of the kids, which I am considering sharing. But not on Flickr due to their recent debacle with that site stealing their stuff!! Anyway, we ended up getting a pumpkin that was back at the little farm store and it actually is a really nice one. When I asked T &J what they wanted to carve in it, T said Barney. That is right everyone. If you are out trick or treating with your kids and you see a Barney pumpkin- you will know that you have found me. 
Here comes the sun! October 19, 2006
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Jas and I talked last night and things are better, not totally, but some. I have realized that he has the ability to argue silently with me. GAAAHHH, that is so annoying! Just ind of skirting around the issue, but still being upset. And a lot of it is my fault. I am stressed at work right now, and taking some of that home. Hopefully that will all change soon. I went to my contractor boss yesterday and told him how unhappy I am. That some some aspects of my job have morphed into insane duties. Ones that I don’t want and should not be expected to do. And he said that he will help me! That he will find me a new position within the company and the building. It was like a huge cloud over my just dissipated, and I wanted to sing….. HERE COMES THE SUN…….. come on, you all know that song! Sing it with me! So here’s to new opportunities, new co-workers, and hopefully some happy posts about how my new job ROCKS!
An even worse day. October 17, 2006
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It is a horrible day, and I only have a few minutes…. Jas and I are fighting. And I am feeling rather discouraged. And I HATE that we have google chat and can argue all day by chatting over that. I could just log off ya know….. so why dont I?
Feeling kind of blue October 16, 2006
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I want to talk about something today that means a lot to me. Friendships. And my lack there of. I mean Jas and I are friends. As it should be. And that is wonderful, but not completely fulfilling on the friendship front. I know that it is impossible to stay friends with everyone forever. It just seems as though I have lost all of the good friends that I have made. We talk about calling, we talk about doing things, it just never happens. I am well aware that part of the problem is me. A large part. When J was born, I was really young. 18 to be exact. All of my friends were going off to college, partying, and being 18. I obviously was not. Don’t get me wrong. Having J at that time was probably the best thing that has happened to me. I cannot even imagine what would have become of me if I had not had to grow up so suddenly and so soon. But back to the point. I lost touch with a lot of my friends at that time. We just weren’t on the same page, or wanting the same things. So I made my life revolve around J, and all was good. Now I have T, and my life revolves around both of them. I have missed my friends since then, and I never really managed to make many more. My best friend now lives about an hour away, so I never get to see her either. It is just sad. Everyone seems so busy, including me. What happened to my life? How did I allow it to become so busy that I haven’t taken the time or made the effort to really connect with anyone lately? Maybe that is why I am here, blogging. Hoping to find some folks that I can connect with, relate with, and talk to. I feel so complete when I am with the kids and doing things with them. But then sometimes I feel so lonely. I think that all of these feelings are coming about because I feel the need to distance myself from one of my friends. Which is another post for another day…..
Happy Monday to all.
Yipppeeee October 13, 2006
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Just a quick post to say that the Christmas decorations are out!!!! At all the stores!!!!! (The only perk of my job is shopping for decorations for the building!) At home we have an awesome Christmas tree and all of our ornaments are red and silver. I saw TONS more ornaments that I want today though. Way too many to purchase, especially since this is our Christmas to be in Baltimore. But I am still decorating, oh yes I am. Jas will just have to be ok with that! He is the one with about 50 nutcrackers that get put out. Which J hates! I don’t know why, but my poor little man is super scared of them. I always put some decorations up in his room, and two years ago I put one of the nutcrackers in there. He woke up so upset becuase he had a bad dream that the nutcracker got him! So now it is acceptable to put the nutcrackers elsewhere, just not the bedroom. He still gives them a stay the hell away from me look when he walks by though. To all the like 3 people that read this (Hi Lilly!), have a wonderful weekend if I dont get a chance to post again.
The joys of a window… October 6, 2006
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I really dont want to be here today….. at work I mean. Of course I want to be on my shiny new blog! I always know that it is a bad sign when I wake up in the morning and it is pitch black out. I dont get up at the crack of dawn or anything, so when the alarm clock goes off and I roll out of bed and trip over everything because there is not a shred of light peeking out from behind the blinds, I know that it is going to be a dark dreary day. Which makes me sleepy. Which makes me totally unproductive at the office. See, I have a window that my desk directly faces. Sometimes having a window in my office is a glorious thing. I can see the sunshine and the birds, and all of those happy kinds of things. Then, there are two kinds of days when I wish the my window would just disappear. The first is a day like today, when I look out and see dark, scary clouds. And then rain. Lots of rain. Sometimes it can be fun watching people act insane because it has started to rain. Ladies take their shoes off and run into the building or to their cars. Men put folders, newspapers, or whatever else they may be holding over their heads as if that little square will save them. But mostly the rain makes me want to curl up with a good book and go to sleep. Too bad I cant accomoplish that at my desk! The other days that are bad for having a window are the days that the city workers fire up the shit plant. That’s right, directly through the trees, about a quarter mile away from my nice govt building, there is a shit plant. At least that is what we call it. When they fire it up and there is a nice breeze, you can totally walk into the office and feel like you are working in a toilet. What a perk! We had a summer intern one time who didn’t know about the shit plant and the entire summer she thought that I had some terrible bowel problem. I only learned this at the end of the summer when she had been her for 2 months and finally said something because the smell was SO bad. I could not believe it. How embarassing! At least she found out the real story. I would not want her to be scared to come back.
So like I said, today is one of those dreary days. It is still early and I am already itching to get out of here. Hey, maybe the shit plant will fire up and give me a jolt of energy. Enough to just say, that’s enough. I am out of here.
Would you label me a procrastinator? October 5, 2006
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My name is E. I read blogs everyday. Lordie, that sounds like and AA meeting introduction, huh? Oh well, it’s like announcing to the world that I love reading blogs, and now I am going to try my hand at my own. I know that sounds really confident, but really I am scared! Scared that no one will read, scared that people will tell me that my writing sucks…. I am super intimidated by all the witty, hilarious blogs that I read daily. I just need some inspiration. I know that it will come soon.
Hopefully.
Please!
